Let's talk about myself. Let me list down all the negative characteristics that I possess. I'm insensitive, I'm greedy to the point of being a money pincher, I was a thief from the age of 7 right up till last year, I've never been a devout Muslim, I'm sarcastic to everyone, I'm egoistic, I don't respect anyone but myself, I never mean what I say, I don't keep my promises, I'm a recalcitrant liar, I lust for pretty girls and women, I gamble, I'm a spendthrift, I wish for bad things to happen to people but not to myself etc etc.
I can go on but I shall just list down the major attitude problems that I have. So, maybe I'm vocal with my principles sometimes, to the extend that I make them public. As such, people start forming expectations of me. They expect me to uphold everything and every word that I say and when I slip, I am deemed a hypocrite because apparently I din't mean what I say. But what can you expect from a normal human created equally and fairly by God? I have my imperfections, and so do all of you out there. As a normal human, I do make mistakes, but do I deserved to be judged by everyone of you out there? Fuck you, I don't.
I am just like you people, I CANNOT change overnight or over a few nights. Therefore I remain myself, unchanged, a stained piece of cloth, for a while because it is IMPOSSIBLE for old habits to die hard. Therefore even though I told myself I have to change for the better, I still make the same FUCKING MISTAKES that I do, because I'm every bit of an IMPERFECT human like all of you. Fair enough?
Now next. I'm a human, you're a human too. I make mistakes, and so do you. I'm imperfect, and so the fucking hell are you. So what fucking right do you, or make that everyone, have to judge me? Are you a fucking saint? If you're perfect like a circle, go ahead and say whatever you want, I deserve it for all the things that I have done in my life. But you're NOT! You judge me by my actions, or by mere vague recollections of my previous actions, and you use it against me to show how imperfect I can be. I accept that and I concede that I have made mistakes.
But what about you? Have you ever paused and took a moment to reflect upon yourself? Have you ever tried to see yourself from the perspectives of other people? Have you even tried to identify your mistakes and did something to correct them? I wouldn't know, and I don't want to know because I don't care anymore. You've got to change yourself before your ego takes over you and you become a helpless case.
Everyone in this world is a hypocrite. Every single one of them including me. The worst hypocrites in this world are those people who deny they are hypocrites. Before you call someone a hypocrite, take a look at yourself in the mirror and find out if you have been one before. I am a hypocrite, that's why I pen my thoughts and feelings about people in this medium of containment rather then voice out verbally or confront anyone.
I'm working on myself. I'm trying to be a better person and be more sympathetic to people around me. The keyword is TRYING. So don't judge me for who I am until you're fucking sure that you're a piece of white, unstained cloth. I'm done. Sometimes the phrase, People don't shape circumstances, Circumstances shapes people, is so true. Its always the little small things that adds up to cause a person to behave the way he or she does. They never meant for it to happen but alas, it still does. That's what causes people to change. It is because of the people around them and the indirect chain of events that occur which causes them to act in a certain way. I deserve the backlash for the things I have said. It hurts when I get whipped by my own actions.
Now Do Unto Others As You Would Have Them Do Unto You means that you should treat people as how you want people to treat you. Simply put, if you want others to treat you nicely, then you have to treat other people nicely as well. So if you treat someone badly, then you should never complain if others were to treat you badly, because you simply do not deserve to be treated nicely for all the bad things you have done to other people.
I admit I am no angel myself. Countless people have been at the receiving end of my sarcasms, insults, degrading remarks et cetera. I would be a billionaire if everyone I have insulted were to give me $1 each. Damn, I would still be a billionaire even if they were to give me 10cents each. But I would like to vindicate myself by saying that I welcome all insults directed to me with open arms, because I believe strongly that I deserve it. But how long and how far can I take it? I do not know and I do not think I would want to know too.
But what if someone who has done nothing wrong, alright maybe a few wrong things, is victimised? Is it fair to go all out against him for the mistakes he committed unknowingly in the beginning? The mistakes which progressively became a permanent stereotype upon him, resulting in such negativity towards him that even at the mere mention of his name brings about a myriad of comments and criticisms.
Sure everyone of us would say he deserves it for his actions and behaviours, but let us take a moment to ponder upon something we have not realised. Who is to blame for what he has turned out to be right now? Can we safely say that his current state, is not a result of OUR attitude towards him and how we have treated him thus far? I daresay that I might have contributed a significant amount to it. And I am proud to admit that I am truly ashamed of myself for what I have done to him. Contradicting, but it's the truth.
Jokes and insults that have been carried too far. The peals of laughters made at the expense of his pride and dignity. I shudder to think of how I would take all that if I was in his shoes. How would you feel if all that welcomes you to school are hushed words and gossips behind your back? I would never come to school again if that was to happen to me. And yet, to add fuel to the burning flame, he has to receive such downright hurtful remarks from people whom I personally know that he has no grudge against. People whom he would definitely like to be friends with again, but sadly forbid by current circumstances.
I admit that I am not perfect myself, but as cliche as it may sound, I hope that I can take a considerable amount of thought before I speak in the future. And I hope that maybe everyone of us could do the same too. It would definitely make a big difference. What I saw today, it just feels wrong, though I do not blame anyone for it, because circumstances always shapes people. Everyone makes mistakes, but you should never leave a mistake be. You have to right it before it becomes worse and results in a disastrous chain of events, which is what that has happened now.
Everyone deserves not just a second chance, but any chance that can allow him or her to become a better person. By stopping at just a second chance, it just goes to show how we give up easily. This achieves nothing at all. You do not stop bathing or cleaning yourself just because you know that you are going to get dirty again right? You continue to clean yourself because you know that you can be clean. And that's the way it is with people as well.
This post generally is for everyone out there. No offence meant and I hope none will be taken by anyone. This is just something which I thought of after some soul searching and self-reflection while in the shower. Life is too short for us to be making enemies. I do not want to die with people still hating me. I rather take wonderful memories to afterlife. I'm sure this is a sentiment echoed in every religion regardless of whether you're a Christian, Muslim, Buddhist or Hindu, that your purpose in life should be for something good. Karma exists. Both bad karma and good karma. Which one you receives, depends on how you live your life and how you treat everything around you.
Peace:)
Ramly Burger. so now im left wondering to myself, how on earth did Mega Mcspicy transform to Ramly chicken burger? that itself is a question so mysterious, it deserves a place among the likes of Bermuda Triangle, UFOs, Bigfoot and Xinghui.
wahahahahah.just decided to include his name in.
hmmm maybe im adopted. i dont look like my father. he's fat and not that goodlooking. im thin and very handsome. my mum is short and fat. im thin and tall. hmmmm. my dad quit school when he was 15. but he tells everyone who'd listen that he took his o-levels and failed. my mum took her o-levels but failed. she only passed maths and malay. failed english and science. how hard could the o-levels be back then?only 4 subjects, i took those 4 subjects during PSLE. but they had Home Econs and D&T too, except that in the 70s, only the 4 main subjects were examinable.
so back to the question. my dad was a dropout, my mum failed english. im still in school, and my english is not bad. maybe i am adopted. wow. but doesn't matter. i wont be that affected if i find out that im adopted i think. i rather get affected by minor things instead, like not having my Mega Mcspicy. oh yeah, and the reason for getting me a Ramly burger was because, according to my mum, she couldlnt find the Macs in Causeway Point. hmmmmm. must be the Macs moved out la hor? must be must be. and they couldnt find Macs, but they found Cold Storage, which i thought was opposite Macs. must be Cold Storage changed location also. must be must be.
and i still havent got back my Harry Potter book from she-who-must-not-be-named. but now ive changed the name to bitch-who-must-not-be-named. sounds nicer and more befitting to the person herself. from the countless times ive read the book, ive always thought that there were only 200 odd pages in the book. but judging from how long she's taking to return me the book, i guess she's still reading it la hor? maybe i remembered wrongly and there are more than a 1000 pages to the book. must be must be.
either that or maybe someone is reading it to her verbally everynight before she sleeps. thats why almost 2months still havent return my book. must be must be. nevermind la, its okay. as long as the level of literates in Singapore increases, i dont mind lending illiterates a few books of mine for them to read and learn.
azlan ah, such sarcasm will only hurt people's feelings you know? be nice azlan.
oh but who cares, sarcasm is my second language. im bound to hurt people. i pity my book. how it is yearning to come back to me. how it wishes to escape from the clutches of the bad-englished-girl. but its okay, my dear book. i'll request for you to be returned to me once school starts ok?we'll be united once more, dont worry.
okay blogging like that seriously makes people think im mental. but its okay. because in my opinion, you have to have a mind capable of mental thoughts and feelings, before you can have mental problems! so by not having mental problems, you sort of lack a mind. so im proud to be mental. woohooo. aaah fuck you.
twist your words if you feel that it makes you feel better. i can stoop down to the lowest level of hell to twist my words too. and mind you, i wash my clothes, be it linen or cotton, both dirty or clean, in the privacy of my home, never in public.
"To regard someone as a family doesn't mean to leave him/her out."
my my. how aptly said. too bad it doesnt contain all truths behind it. name one particular time, where the three of us left the two of you, out; and i, in return will name you a particular, time where you rejected us. it has been tested and proven that constant rejections result in the human mind adapting to such rejections, and in turn, it shies away from situations in which rejection is a possibility. so you cant blame us if we dont ask both of you to hang out sometimes, because we understand that you have other friends outside and we are too used to that.
we know our shopping trips or chill-out sessions doesn't interest you. we know, you know. so dont try to act unhappy and offended that we dont ask you out, because deep down, you know yourself well that you dont want to join us anyway. so dont take advantage of our guilt to make it seem as if you're being left out. you may ask, " How would you know that we dont like hanging out with you?" well, when you start whining grumpily to yourself about " Why do we have to go to Orchard? It's so far!" or "Why are we still waiting here?" it is kind of obvious that you rather be somewhere else, maybe to meet your friends. because judging from your blog posts, you dont seem to mind the distance or mind the waiting time when youre with Your friends, globe-trotting the entire singapore for food haunts.
we keep quiet, the three of us, most of the time. we know you're unhappy, you dont have to make it any obvious you know, because we three are mentally stable enough to notice unhappiness. but do you have to rub it in? do you have to make it less fun for the rest of us? do you think we love waiting? we dont! but we keep quiet. but you take that for granted. thats why sometimes, we rather go out among ourselves, or people with a positive spirit to them, so that we can we have an enjoyable time. pardon the selfishness, but we just hate wet blanket sometimes.
There's so many things I want to ask you e.g. "Why are you always picking on me?"
maybe this isnt directed wholly towards me, but in my/our defence, even a blind man can see that we dont solely pick on you. really, we dont. in the first place, define "picking on you". if you mean, "why do you always insult me?", then i offer my sincerest of apologies. my mouth runs on an endless supply of energy, and i know my words hurt you sometimes. i take back all those nasty things ive said to you and i hope you forgive me.
but if you mean "why do you always make fun of me?", then i put it to you that even you will notice that elwin had it worse then you did. maybe i got complacent and carried away when it comes to making fun of you, but come on, everything was just for the fun of it. you laughed, i laughed, everyone laughed. so who cant take a joke now? who's the sensitive one now? with no pointing fingers on my part, i leave it to you to figure that out.
but just under a minute to wipe it from the face of this earth.
It takes a second to form a friendship,
but much lesser to end one.
Having friends is a big honour,
but it just takes a small action to show whether you honour the friendship.
Having to accept your mistakes is forgiveable,
but having to deny it in unpardonable.
Many a times our words may sting,
and we offer our sincerest apologies.
Many are born perfect,
but still none are without flaws.
But countless times we have lent you a helping hand,
showing how we treasure the friendship
But it seems to you,
that none are worth remembering.
What we felt was never anger,
just disappointment.
What was a small matter to you,
was a whole different matter to us.
We expected more from you,
you who we have regarded almost family.
We would have done everything for you,
but it seems nothing has been reciprocated.
hi everyone. it has been a while. i know i know. the delay in this post was mostly due to the fact that there wasn't anything particularly interesting to talk about these past weeks. but hmmmm i guess there is one now.
of course, judging from the obvious fact that my loyal readers are, ironically, my closest friends in school, they would know of everything that goes on in my life so there again, nothing much to update since they are already updated.
but yeah. this past few days specifically, has been a quite a new experience for me. a new experience which i have experienced before since, i have been single before. sounds contradicting but yeah. definitely a breath of fresh air. being single and everything.
still adapting to this new path i/ we have taken. oh, it was an amicable separation by the way. no huge arguments, no big fights. pretty peaceful. but im glad it happened i guess. it gave me a chance to view the relationship from another point of view.
taught me alot of things too, the entire course of the relationship. which lasted pretty much around 1 year, 8months and 15days. looking back, it was definitely a happy period of time for me/ us. im glad it lasted long and strong, and it was very much, a worthy and worthwhile experience for me.
it built up my character, tolerance for other people. i would say it prepared me and gave me an insight to how it feels like to be with someone youre prepared to be with. many experiences i've gained, but yet at the same time, many things about love that ive discovered and still can't understand.
all i know is that, when you love someone, there usually isn't any reason or explanation to how you feel that way to the other person. and its important that it stays that way. because to me, love should be an irrational feeling. there shouldnt be any explanations behind it. this way, it stays mysterious enough for us to always want to understand it.
so yeah. love is a powerful thing. no other authority in this world can have a hold on you except love. its irresistible and tempting and difficult to let go. when love is at the stage where it is most satisfying, the feeling is definitely out of this world. but yet, when its gone. its like a flash flood that leaves a massive wreckage in its wake.
a wreckage that takes time to get cleaned up. i would say when love is gone, it leaves a hole in your heart. that gaping hole, can never be filled up. only a new love is strong enough to lay a foundation over that hole, but it can never be fully filled. for the damage is already done.
thats what a lost love does to you. it digs holes in your heart, leaving it hollow. and when you fall in love again, you risk emptying out more of your heart. thats how love can destroy a man. it causes the heart to crumble.
hmmmm. man i write so well sometimes. so yeah, thats how i feel about love. wonderful yet painful. i want more of love, but im a coward. its a traumatic experience so im gonna steer well away from love for a while. gonna try to clean up the mess inside me. find some cement to cover the hole in my heart temporarily. okay there you go. a short and sweet post. till next time!
to you:)
thanks for still accepting me as a good friend,
much appreciated.
thanks alot for the good times,
will never forget it.
maybe we'll find the right one,
next time.
so once more, the world is left in tremors and shock as another King departs for the afterlife. im not talking about any other King, those royal kings or emperors, im talking about Michael Jackson, the King of Pop. the man who was so influential that his music, his dance moves, his style, his clothes all brought revolution to world of music and fashion style that we have come to know. for 30years, his life, his music, it formed the basis for everyday news, inspiration for startlings in the music industry.
without him, Usher, Chris Brown etc would all be dancing tango and waltz to their music instead of their pop and locking, slick robotic dance moves. without him, cosmetic surgery would have never advanced to the stage its in now. he was, after all, the man who had gone through more plastic surgeries then 1,000 men combined in a lifetime. even his nose has received more controversial news then 10 of edison chen's sex scandal put together. how are we ever going to find a man of such calibre and influence comparable to Michael Jackson? when is it even going to happen? it will be a long time before that happens again. a King can never be found, he can only be borned a King. and that was Michael Jackson.
many speculate that Justin Timberlake would reign as the new King. but he, in my opinion, can never be the man Michael Jackson was. to be like MJ, he would have to molest innocent young school boys and go through cosmetic surgery that would make him a negro. after that, he has to have a body part that would be the centre of attraction of his career for the next ten years, like how MJ's nose was. and then after that he would have to convert to Islam like MJ did. if JT can do that, he will undeniably, be the next King of Pop.
rumor has it that MJ's body now is being studied at an advanced medical facility. instead of burying his body, they have replaced it with something of similar equivalence to MJ - 10packets of black plastic garbage bags. many nature enthusiasts have opposed to the burying of MJ's body for they worry that the high plastic content, accumulated after years of plastic surgery, would be non-biodegradable and adversely affect the soil content of the earth. scientists are planning to extract all the precious plastic from MJ's body so that it can be recycled to form new grocery bags. auctions are being set up as you read this, to sell limited editions of Michael Jackson plastic bags to interested buyers.
but jokes aside, ladies and gentleman. let us now mourn and give a silent prayer to the man who invented the technique of lip-synching. may our prayer guide him to the deepest depths of the heavens awaiting him. or hell. but one thing we do know. that from tomorrow onwards, the world has lost one of its music legend and icon, but the afterlife has gained. so do not be surprise people, that when the 7th lunar month comes, our (ghostly) ancestors would be dancing the moonwalk and sporting shiny leather jackets with white diamond studded gloves, humming to the tune of Beat It.
long live, Michael.
currently, in this world right now where there are explanations for almost everything that has been discovered. examples how animals have instincts when they have been proven to have negligible intelligence; to how the world was created as a result of a massive implosion of an extinct star; etc etc. but there's still no explanation on how we man can understand a woman.
even in top universities like MIT, Harvard, Oxford, Cambridge etc etc, where they offer studies like forensic paleonthology, biblical archaelogy, quantum physics, subjects that a normal human mind cant fathom, you will never find offered courses called Understanding a Woman or Women's Mindset Revealed or Women 101. never. and i think i finally found out why. because its impossible and man have gave up trying eons ago.
thats why scientists chose to study much easier topics like inventing lightbulbs, telephones, time travel machines etc etc because of the simple reason that it is much easier as compared to studying and understanding women. imagine if a scientist discovered how man can read a woman's mind, i think life will be definitely much easier then it is now. who needs a telephone or a computer or a television when you can have a woman who you can understand.
think about it, all the unhappiness is these world, from riots and protests to animal extinctions to the economic recessions, all these could have been avoided if we had the ability to understand a woman. which man in the right mind would go do something so stupid like rioting and protesting, if they could just stay at home and be with his loving and understanding wife?
they can do better things like maybe have sex or watch tv together or i dont know, maybe have sex again? its because they cant understand their wives and thats why these men get all angsty and filled with anger. and when they get angry, they tend to get offended by the slightest thing like a rise in the GST rate or rise in the electricity tariff, so they protest!! and that ladies and gentlemen, is how you get a full blown riot.
another example, look whats happening to the economy right now. who were the people respoinsible for the current economic recession? those 2 guys who decided to fake their company's profits isnt it? you know why they did that? because they couldnt understand their wives! and they got angry and decided that, "Hey, let's cheat millions of dollars from Americans. Beats staying at home with those women." and the other guy replied, "Yeah, let's go man." and they hi5-ed each other and caused the the current economic recession.
there you go. in a single day, ive tracked all the unhappiness in these world and linked it to one major problem, and that is, Man cant understand Women. ever heard of the phrase, men are from mars, women are from venus? its only half true. instead, it should go like this, men are from earth, women are from venus. men never came from mars people. we were the original inhabitants of planet Earth. it was the women who came from outer space with their private parts and made us horny bastards that we were hypnotised into believing that we came from mars.
and then after that, they refused to tell us what was wrong when they got angry. they just faced away and crossed their arms and pouted. and in our anger for not being able to understand them, our ancestors killed all the dinosaurs and caused their extinction. thats right people, dinosaurs dint get killed in the ice age. it was us, man, all along. we killed them and blamed the cold weather for their deaths.
you know who caused world war II? it wasnt Adolf Hitler, people. it was his wife. she was disgusted that he was born with only one testicle. so she got angry and refused to tell poor Hitler what was wrong. and in a fit of anger, he initiated the Holocaust and subsequently, world war II. you know why the japanese bombed pearl harbour? because the geishas were unhappy that they were taller then most japanese men, so the japanese men got angry and decided to bomb pearl harbour and invade china and singapore.
okay enough nonsense. i blogged. so stop bugging me to blog. bye.
oh ya! recently i just realised im a hypocrite. well, everyone's pretty hypocritical actually, so that makes me normal. but yeah, all these while i thought i was pretty accepting towards homosexualism, but the occurence of recent events have left me in doubt. one day i was at work and i saw these 2 men holding hands while walking around kinokuniya. one was a big guy and the other was pretty small and they were acting all mushy and lovey dovey to each other in front of many people. i couldnt help but feel so disgusted by the sight. it was a first for me, seeing acts of homosexualism and i myself was shocked by my own reaction. and just last week i came across a blog belonging to a homo and again, it was just disgusting for me.
i guess its just hard to accept something out of the norm. being brought up in a society where homosexuality used to be unheard of has really moulded our perceptions. and the natural reaction to such abnormalities is usually disgust. but then again, who are we to judge these people? what gives us the right to criticise these people for the wrong that they have never committed? did they ask to be born that way? im pretty disappointed with the way i reacted. if 2individuals decide that both of them needs each other and loves each other, even if they're of the same sex, then there's nothing really wrong for them to be together right? there's no reason for us to deprive them of the chance to be together. so what if its weird and it goes against basic human behaviour? there is no such thing as a standard set of human behaviour in these world. everything is just formed by perceptions. and perceptions are subjective, there can never be a right or a wrong.
acceptance is what we have to instill in ourselves. we have to learn to accept. if we cant accept at all costs, then ignorance is what is left. we should just ignore instead of expecting others to be what we want them to be. its just unfair. i shall take back all my previous comments and criticisms that i have made in passing, to homosexuals.
on a lighter note, i can ride a bike!!!!yay!!!!i can change gears and and can brake without toppling over. and i can ride for a few metres now. thanks to my father who willingly allowed his bike to be manhandled by me. and im allowed to ride his bike to school once i get my license. cool shit. no more trains for me in about 8months time. yay! i shall get myself a helmet on my birthday.
oh yeah, projects are piling up now. i have no determination to do icca project leh. so sian. looking forward to efma though:D:D oh shit, got squishing sounds under my keyboard. giving me goosebumps. where was i? oh yeah. projects. i hope to get everything over and done with quickly. but i dont want the exams to come. 4out of the 5 modules im taking are all pure memorisation and that sucks. my GPA will drop for sure. sighs.
and i cant wait for the 4th of june. i need my pay badly. been spending alot with my friends in school. such bad company. im messing. cant wait for the 8th of june too. i wna apply for my bike license. shall grow my hair long. so that when i ride, i can let my hair down and let the wind blow my hair. as if. k time to do stupid icca. bye.
oh ya!!!!indra sahdan is in NYP!!!!!!i feel so honored to be sharing the space of my school with the captain of our very own Singapore national football team.very very honored.ive decided that the next time i see him i shall shake his hand and maybe embrace him.what an honor to have him in our presence.indeed a very great pleasure.although he's not really a good player as i am,but he's still an experienced player.what an honor.seriously
okay french wasnt really that exciting.i'd gladly have another teacher.i wouldnt mind a teacher that doesnt stop teaching actually.because french is such an interesting language la, but him teaching it makes it equally boring like accounting.so this year no hot teachers yet.sigh.what a waste.but still.i aspire to master the language and i will do my best to learn during lessons.yes i will.
meanwhile,i find that im growing tired of working.sigh.even though making drinks is fun and ive such a talent for it and i dont have to entertain customers,i still find the job boring.i realise that the F&B industry doesnt really appeal to me.the idea of committing myself to a 8hour a day, 6 days a week kind of job isnt appealing at all.i dont understand how restaurant managers and workers can actually survive this mundane routine.its even more rigid and regimental than working in the army for sure.
ive decided that i want to aim to get into university after my poly education.then i will either become a teacher or an office worker.teaching is fun actually.ive always admired those teachers who can speak well and exude their professionalism in the classroom, really making the presence as a teacher, felt to the students.the pay is good too yeah?but the downside is the many papers and homeworks that i have to mark every single day.oh dear.
okay shall go bathe.how i hate goodbyes.
Alright people, if you havent heard about this yet, get a copy of yesterday's The New Paper and turn to the middle section. You will see a full graphic report on the imminent solar flare that will hit Earth in approximately 3 years time. And no, this is not a lie. I know that it sounds suspiciously like the solar flare which destroys Earth in the movie, Knowing. But trust me, this really came out in the papers.
So, according to NASA, in 3years time, the Sun will reach the final stage of its 11-year solar cycle of producing solar flares. At the 11th year of every cycle, the solar flares produced are much more pronounced then previous flares. And the latest cycles have been proven to produce even bigger solar flares then previous cycles. NASA has warned that the upcoming solar flare will reach Earth in 2012. This solar flare, according to them, contains high electromagnetic energy that could wipe out Earth's electrical supply, worldwide.
Not much of a big deal, you might think. Since the worst thing that could happen would be a blackout and the energy would be restored eventually. But, the magnitude of the solar flare would have the power to destory all the electrical transformers on Earth. This transformers, takes years to produce and it needs electrical energy for its production. Therefore, theoretically, it will be almost impossible to restore Earth's electrical supply.
Hospitals will cease to function as their back up generators are only able to supply energy for a few hours, after which many people will die wihout their life support. Mankind's creations will be their ultimate pitfall as trains will run offtrack and collide, possibly injuring its passengers. We have reached a stage where electricity have been embraced in our lives so much so that wihout it, our survival could be impossible without it.
Solar flares are however a recurrent occurence. And usually, they are harmless, only creating beautiful auroras that you see in the skies over at the poles of the Earth. However, recent solar flares have penetrated the Earth's orbit and have even caused temporary power shortages on airplanes flying in the affected region of the stratosphere.
Im such a good writer. i wrote all that in my own words after just reading the article once. So proud of myself:D But as much as i would like to doubt NASA's words on the destructive power of the solar flare, there is something eerie that i must point out regarding the date of the solar flare itself. 2012 is the date of Earth's destruction, as predicted by the same man who accurately predicted the occurence of the September 11 terrorist attacks, the 2004 tsunami which killed 350,000 people and the hurricane Katrina in 2005.
Somehow, the uncanny similarity of the solar flare occuring in 2012 and the prediction of the guy who said Earth's destruction will be on the 20/12/2012 is somewhat scary and thought provoking. As much as i would hate to accept this fact, signs of Earth's destruction has already appeared. This is in accordance to my religion's teachings and beliefs.
I cant believe that the year i celebrate my 21st birthday, would also be the last year of eternity, of all time. The Earth has already lived for millions of years, and all living things eventually die out. So its just fair. I just hope that when the time comes, it will be painless. Hopefully i dont die drowning or getting hit by falling debris or getting burned in a fire. sigh!
How many of you gets angry when your exit is blocked by inconsiderate MRT or bus commuters who refuse to step out to make way for you? Many of you right? Who doesn't? Only a saint would say "Excuse me, excuse me" politely and try their best to squeeze out of the trains and buses. And after that, we get all angry and pissed at the attitude of our fellow Singaporeans and we complain to the Straits Times, the New Paper, the government etc etc.
But how many of you, actually step out of the train to let the other commuters exit? Not all right? See, that's hypocrisy at its best! We expect people to make way for us to exit, and yet when it is OUR turn to let people exit, we selfishly try to stay IN the train! I don't even understand why the idea of stepping out of the train for 5seconds tops, can scare all of us so much that we actually try to our best to stay in the train as if we will die if we step out for a while.
Trust me, i don't say all these without witnessing first-hand, daily happenings in the train to support my claims. Ive been taking the train almost daily for the past month to get to work and twice ive noticed the same scenario of an ugly, hypocritical Singaporean. Both scenarios involve a hyper-kiasu aunty, and a typical peak hour MRT train packed with alot of people. When people wanted to alight, they would block the exit by refusing to step out of the train. But when it was their turn to alight, and there were people blocking the exit, they got super mad and frustrated!
The ironic thing was that, they (the kiasu aunties) actually had the cheek to shake their heads in disapproval. Just a minute ago, they were acting like stupid statues at the exit and now suddenly they are the righteous citizens who are disappointed by the actions of their inconsiderate fellow Singaporeans. These aunties deserve a round of applause for their righteousness and also, a full length mirror to reflect on themselves. Such fucked-upness attitude of us Singaporeans.
It would take eons for us to become a gracious society if we carry on being hypocritical people. Do you know that, in European countries like France or Italy, if you refuse the seats that the concierge has given you, you can actually be asked to leave the restaurant? Yet, in Singapore, the culture is the total opposite. There's only the 2 of you and you request for a table for 6. So what, the 4 seats are extra space for you super big ego and your hyper sized asian ass? Fucked up attitude. And the when you dont get the table you want, you kick up a big fuss and demand the attention of the manager.
Some would even lie to get the extra seats and space. We waiters arent dumb people you know? We can sense something missing when your, so called "friend" or "guests" dont turn up after like 2hours, you know? Fucked up. Stupid customers. Be a fucking waiter for one day and see how it feels to entertain customers who have the same fucking attitude as you. Then come back and be nicer!
An entire post dedicated to ugly Singaporeans. Not literally though. Because its usually the good-looking bitches who creates all the problems. Fucked up.
Bye!
its pink
its cool
its beautiful
its light
its stylish
its superb
life has been so much better since it entered my life.im just kidding.im so glad i bought it.totally no regrets.everyone should get it!!then you'll find out the bliss of owning an ipod touch.oh just the thought of the wonders it does makes me want to run and grab it and just hug it tight,close to me.but no.its charging now so i must exercise some self restraint.i shall give it two hours before i reunite with my beloved ipod touch:D
work is fun.so has been the holidays too.just immersing myself into work and spending time with sonia.work equals money(lots of it actually) and dating equals happiness:D(and loss of money as well.but its okay!we shall not eat anything expensive anymore ok baby?we shall diet and lose weight together.yes!we shall.amen)
im glad i saved my pay.i dont really know what to spend it on anymore.i think im gna stop spending on clothes anymore.i feel that i have just enough to last me at last 4weeks without repeating the same shirt.(i have 38 tshirts, 5jeans, 2shorts currently as at 15march09)thats quite a number i guess so i shall stop spending on clothes!!yay!!and we,me and sonia,have decided not to eat at places that charge service charge and gst anymore!!yay!that means more money saved.(tip:instead of going to fish and co or mahattan fish market to get your supply of fish and chips every now and then,why not head down to chippy british takeaway instead?it almost tastes the same but i feel its much tastier and it only costs $4.80!!!yum yum)
i shall save my money.on my list of to-get items now includes
1) ipod in-ear earphones (which costs a shocking $128!!!!)
2) a nice acoustic guitar (budget of $400)
3) my motorbike license (and then maybe a motorbike once i get the license.i will look so cool riding a bike:D)
4) lastly i hope to pay for my laptop.$1.7k but mom says she will pay it for me.hehe.maybe can pay my bike's deposit first.heheheheheh
oh ya.list of celebrities i have sighted at kinokuniya so far includes
1) Ivy Lee, channel8 actress.oh my gosh she's gorgeous.even from far.and she looks so much more beautiful while expecting.
2) Ericia Lee, actress/host.the buxomy actress.super skinny but super well endowed too in the chest area.even from a distance it was significant
3) Alain Robert aka human spiderman.anyone knows this guy?well, he climbs tall buildings using nothing but his limbs and chalk powder.cool or what.he was at kino to promote his book called With Bare Hands.but judging from the number of people who turned up to see him promote his book, im pretty sure he'll do better just climbing buildings.
hope to see more celebrities.
results coming out in 2days time.anti climax.destroying the holidays while we are in the midst of enjoying ourselves.but still,im quite looking forward to knowing how i fared.hope i can achieve at least 3.5 points.please please please.goodluck to all my friends as well.especially elwin.he needs all the luck he can get.hehe.and goodluck to baby as well!!!
and to ahbeng who is going to bintan, michelle who's going to hong kong i think, and xinghui who is going to bangkok, take care of yourselves, dont die hor overseas.or else my circle of friends will deplete even more.sigh.and dont forget to get me souvenirs!!!
wow.longest post since a while.im hungry.byebye!
so chalet's over.it was a fun experience planning it.but too bad it had to rain and end the bbq much sooner then we wanted it to last.so sorry to those who came later and dint really have much to eat.terribly sorry:(
okay.gonna watch the dvd now.cant wait to go swimming next week!:D:D:D:D:D
killed my interest to celebrate tomorrow.
killed my interest to shop with baby on tuesday.
killed my interest for class chalet.
basically it murdered everything and left no traces behind.
oh well.decided im gonna get the ipod touch after all.5month-plan has been scrapped since there wont be a second month at all.the ipod touch will be a treat for myself.yay.jumps for joy.whatever.
fuck accounting.im gonna sit for it with last friday's little revision and some memories of the lessons a few weeks back.
goodluck people and have fun celebrating,
so today was celebration of valentine's day:Dhow sweet.dont ask why we're not celebrating on saturday.its confidential.
and i got twilight from baby!thanks so much.you can never go wrong buying me books for presents cos i just love reading.
but but,i think this came a sinfully wrong time cos im supposed to be revising.but i cant resist the temptation whenever i look at the book.gosh.edward feels so much more handsome as depicted in the book then in the movie.somehow,i feel it is almost insulting to put that guy as edward.
somehow it feels like im reading a new book when in fact i read it before in sec 3.but i guess it takes a movie to make the book much more interesting to read.i certainly enjoy reading it now then i read it before.
im gonna get new moon next.and eclipse.and breaking dawn.but not before i get all the 7 potter books.muahahaha.
okay fuck it.im gonna study the economy now.
well,today was definitely my lucky day. cant really fathom the fact that i won $57 in total from gambling. but i feel guilty. firstly, gambling is illegal in the eyes of Islam. and secondly, accepting the money i have won feels as if im stealing again. and this time stealing from my friend. because the way i see it is, if i gain at the expense of someone losing, doesnt that equate to stealing from the person that i gained from?
see the relation people?oh well. its putting me in a difficult situation right now. because as much as i dont want to accept the winnings, im imperfect just like all you too, i have my greed and temptations as well. especially since $57 seems like quite a substantial amount of money in my opinion.hmmmm.i dont know.
but if everyone thinks like me, the spirit of gambling will be lost forever in this world.oh well.
oh yeah!i found out that this semester i have improved on my studies.i have done significantly well for my tests and i hope god will bless me for my examinations too.i really hope to make it to the director's list at least once in my entire time in NYP.sounds so prestigious to be on a list you know.so definitely,i shall try to make my dream come true.
and did i tell you i found a job?yes people,im finally off the unemployed shelf.i got a job at the coffee club and so far, its been good. the friends are nice to me, its just natural to be nice to a good looking guy you see. and the jobs pretty easy.i just stand there and look at people shopping for books at kinokuniya.number of customers at any point of time is lesser then 10 always.and they stay there for 2hours minimum each time.
cleaning tables at the coffee club is so much easier as compared to pizza hut. pizza hut customers leave behind a dirty table full of chicken bones, tissue papers, dirty plates pans cutleries, dirt on the table, spills on the table and dirty glasses.coffee club customers usually just leave behind 1 coaster, 1 cup and 1 serviette per customer.theres no spills on the table because they sip their drinks carefully.not because the drink is too nice, but simply because they dont want to appear uncivilised.
how i love working there, even though the pay is only 5dollars, and there are no incentives or special discounts for workers. but who cares. the greatest perk has got to be having a gay supervisor.i dont know why i always get gay supervisors.i had a gay supervisor too at pizza hut. but it has its advantages. they dont scold me ever, and they flirt sometimes too. if it means less tables to wipe, and longer break time, i will gladly do more the flirting. just kidding baby:D
oh well. on another happy note, my oral comms is over!all 3 ICAs are over and im supremely happy.i did well for the first 2 ICAs and i hope i do well for my 3rd one.have a feeling its gonna be a B this time.but its okay.a Bplus or hopefully and A would definitely be nice.
so im left with sharepoint.but i have done my part.so basically im done with everything but exams.i prefer exams to projects so it doesnt matter.okay.time to go off now.working tmr,cant wait to see my gay supervisor:D
hello to myself.
the week just started two days ago but it definitely felt way more then a million days.all for a reason which will be kept confidential.the event that happened almost a month back would certainly pale in comparison to this one.the severity and emotions brought about by it simply devastating.there isn't much words can say about it.i can only wish that it gets better from here.
the feeling of being cast aside definitely doesn't feel as bad as the feeling of being alone.simply because the prior means you still own it but the latter on the other hand means you've lost all of it.different interpretations can be made but i personally felt alone for a while.like seeing the things close to your heart drifting away right before your eyes and the only thing you can do is stare.stare and do nothing.
it renders your body useless.losing sense of prioritising all needs like ingestion and rejuvenation.eating and sleeping in layman's terms.it makes you forget the hunger you're experiencing,it makes sleep impossible and it makes your thoughts incoherent.symptoms worse than that of terminal disease.the power of destruction alike none other except death itself.
it attacks your heart and consume it with grief.a barrier that prevents moving on impossible,forgetting impossible,loving impossible.the emptyness that can be only filled with the presence of another.the presence of someone that can break that barrier and remove all pain.but the risk it brings only adds up to more grief and sufferings for the outcome is never known.if it is,there would not be any heartbreaks in this world ever.
i lost what i treasured for a while,now i will treasure what i have,nurture it hoping it will turn out good for me.amen.
Don't Speak
You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?
Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
favourite song for 2009:)
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